Unfortinually humans are the only species on the planet that destroy what they have created. All we need to do is look in the paper each day and see new and bloody documentation of this fact.

It need not be on the larger scale of wars etc, just look at your life and try to find something that you have built and then destroyed.

Unfortinually I know of this first hand, all too well. I seem to do it more often than not.

I have the most beautiful girlfriend, who I love more than anything in the world. Infact I want to marry her, why is it that all I seem to do at the moment is ruin our relationship? Shes done nothing wrong apart from live her life how she wants to, which is what I expect from any body. So why do I keep finding things to annoy and hurt her with?

Some may think I'm just a evil person looking to hurt the one I love, however I'm not. All I want to do is make her happy. But I'm stuck in this cycle of self hating and depression. Nothing seems to stop me, until I just break down and think about the alternatives. But I can not see any apart from loosing the one I love so she is happy.

So I just go along with my life, depressed and annoying her, what can I do to stop it?

Maddie your worth so much more than what I can give you, but I love you for sticking by me when all any other person would do is walk away. I hope one day I can make it up to you for all that I've said and done.

After all even though Humans are bent on destroy each other, theres love to stop us.